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Nickey's Songs of the Month

Linkin Park - "Waiting for the End"
Muse - "Undisclosed Desires"

Nickey's Favorite Quotes

"A fool thinks himself to be wise, but a wise man knows himself to be a fool" - Shakespeare

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Saturday, 06 June 2009

  • Secrets Cemetery







    I started thinking about all the things I've been hiding.  Secrets I've kept throughout my whole life.  Things that I never wanted to tell anyone even though I always felt I should.   I started to think about what the outcome would be if I told any of my secrets.  I can think of ones all the way back to my childhood. I know there are things that I probably should of told someone about but just never did.  I started to ask myself why.  Why do I keep these secrets?  I wondered if other people keep secrets to.  I'm sure everyone does.  I guess I like to reassure myself that I'm not the only weirdo withholding information.

    I was recently at a funeral and I couldn't help but wonder what secrets this person took with him to the grave.  As I looked across the cemetery at all the other tombstones, I wondered about all the secrets that might be buried with them.  How many must there be?

    After giving it so much thought,  I also began to wonder if keeping secrets is wrong.  Who are we keeping secrets from? Is keeping a secret the same as lying? Or are we simply not willing to share? Perhaps we are just guarding our mouths to avoid a bad situation.   Or maybe there's just things you don't want people to know about you.

    But are all secrets safe?

    Surely not all of them.

    Some will die and be put to rest.

    Which secrets will we take to the grave?

    How many well-kept secrets will we bury with each of our loved ones?

    No one will ever know.

Friday, 08 May 2009

  • People Who Think They Are Important

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    Today I'm going to whine about people who think they are important.

    These kind of people annoy the hell out of me!  What the hell makes them think they are better than than anyone?!

    They think they are special and entitled to everything. 

    I once had a college kid tell me she was a Registered Nurse.  I wasn't impressed.  It turns out that she still had 3 more years of college to go!  She was still in school to become a nurse.  Meaning she hadn't taken her state exam.  Meaning she didn't have a nursing license! So why did she tell me she was a nurse? 

    Another was going to school to become an engineer.  Her freshman year she was already telling people she was an engineer.  Talking about how she wanted her office decorated and how she was going to boss her employees around. 

    As if!

    Who the hell do people think they are these days?!

    I have to say that I have learned more outside of college than I would have ever learned inside.  Why?  College isn't the real world.  They make it seem like once you graduate, everything is just going to fall on your lap.  What really happens?  What is the ugly truth?  The truth is that your always going to be someone elses bitch no matter what.  You are always going to have to answer to someone and there will always be someone on top of you.

    Now do you  think your important? Cause your not. Everyone is the same.  We all have a different purpose and everyone's shit stinks so get over yourself.

Tuesday, 05 May 2009

  • Skeletons In My Closet

     

     

    Yes they say we all have skeletons in our closets. I must have more than most. They really frighten me. Always fearful they might come out and haunt me. My closet is full . There is no room for more.

    There are old ones and new ones. The new ones reminding me of the older ones. They feed each other. A dark and gloomy community of demons in wrath waiting to devour my mind and incapacitate my spirit. A vivid image of what shames me. Memories in the the the dark corners reminding me again and again of my crimes and those done against me.  The ghost of crimes past taking me on a journey to the land of the guilty dead.

    Lock the door and throw away the key. I hope they stay there and never come out.

Saturday, 02 May 2009

  • There's No Such Thing As Friends

    It has happened again.  Another "friend" of mine has once again betrayed me. I remember my mom would always tell me not to be hanging out with these girls.   I always made excuses for them. They were my friends. I thought yeah they are a little bit out of control but I never thought they would do me any harm. I thought they can't possibly get to me.  I am my own person and I can make my own decisions without letting them influence me in bad way.  Boy was I wrong.  If only you knew how much trouble they have gotten me into.  It's a shame.

    I am in utter shock as to how their true colors came out after all those years.  I've been friends with these girls for almost ten years. Suddenly they turned on me like I would never have imagined.  And it all came back to me.  All those memories of the past.  All the times we spent together and all the conversations we had.  And it hit me.  They've always hated me!  They wanted to destroy my life. You know how they say misery loves company. Yeah. They were and still are so unhappy with their lives that they wanted the same for me. 

    The words my mom had told me when I was younger came to me.  She always use to say there is no such thing as friends. I thought she was crazy.  I thought friendship was one of the most cherished things in life.  How could that possibly be true. She always said be careful who you hang with.  I thought well I can't be a judgmental kind of friend. No one is perfect. Aren't I suppose to accept people for who they are? I guess not. Lesson learned a little later than I would have liked. 

    Could this be true?  Is there no such thing as friends?  I'm starting to believe there's not. Everyone is susceptible to hate. 

Tuesday, 21 April 2009

  • Can't Trust A Bitch

    This weekend I was reminded again of how conniving and competitive females can be. This guy kept trying to get me to go home with him.  My friend of 10 or more years was somehow convinced that I had lead him on.  She thought is was unusual that he would try to talk to me since he's so shy.  She didn't exactly say it.  But I could read her words.  This isn't the first time this happens to me.  I am a fairly attractive female and I do get hit on from time to time.  Just like any other attractive female does.  I just hate it how each time a male gets a little out of control for me, I'm to blame.  Oh she must have provoked him. She likes the attention.  This really chaps my ass.  Not only that, but later I found out she asked our other friend out to lunch and didn't even mention me or wanted to invite me after this.  I'm beginning to suspect that this so-called friend of mine is starting feel threatened by me.

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